An excerpt from an unsent letter...
I am destroyed by force and mockery every time I turn to the direction
on my starlight compass that points to you. I am destroyed and ruined
into small pieces that float on the tranquil gaze of summer's evening
breeze. I am a speechless nightmare of frustrated illusion knowing that
I ache to hold your sight in the trembling meekness of my vision. These
parts and odds and ends and remnants drift without will and sense past
the miles that separate us until they consume you in their whirlwind,
flowing past your nostrils, and filling your lungs with this concentrated
air made wet with meaning. Your blood flows through the careening network
of veins and arteries and capillaries delivering this sweet message
through every last inch of you. Your words are dampened by my sprit
making you battle your tongue for control of your diction. Your movements
are sweeping and unintentional as your muscles burn a fiery blue flame
that spells my name on the horizon of your consciousness. I am destroyed
when I face you but my ashes will blot out the sun of your distraction
and infuse my being into your beautiful yet reluctant shell.